Linking Park - Numb
Why I cannot be the person I am? Why I have to be a copy of someone else? Back to the days we first met, I made changes to myself unconditionally just because you like it that way. At that time, I simply thought that when we are in love, we adapt ourselves to each other. For this reason, I broke some habbits, said goodbye to some guys, and took up new things... But it ended up like being caught in the undertows. Don't think that the waves disapear or vaporate forever once hitting the beach; the returning waves - the undertows, though harmlessly tiny, can still strike back into the sea. And the former person of mine strikes back at me in much the same way. Waves belong to the sea as a matter of fact, and so does the former person of mine and me. One can tell a lie to others, but how can one play a trick on oneself? I am becoming more and more exhausted in making non-stop changes in myself to meet your standards. I'm suffocating in the on-going war between me and the true person of mine. I just wanna be me myself. Ironically enough, whatever I do is just exactly against your selfish will.
I dont wanna be someone else. Dont expect any more changes. Dont you see that you are killing me, killing the one you once loved? You make me wonder whether you loved me indeed, or just because I could become the person you want. I lost my confidence. I hardly know what to do. How can I be exactly the person you wish? Dont you think it is an imposibility? Ironically enough, whatever I think is just exactly against your selfish will.
Clumsy as I am. Numb as I am. I could no longer tell the "me" from the "you" inside me. How can I continue my life like this? Wanna make you happy as I am, still I wanna be the person of mine. Sometimes I just give up the fight, sometimes I stand up to protect my self. But the fight is becoming more intense. When the person of mine take control, I get angry, break out shouting and yelling. And then I subdue that person and say sorry to you. I hurt my self just because I love you. But what will happen next? What a weak-minded I am! What a greedy person you are! Now please just listen, for once. What I really long for is just being more of the person of mine and less of the person of yours. Should you expect more changes, you'll sure be disappointed. You wanna know why? I can not do it for you any more. I am not tolerant any more, though my heart is still beating for you. Inronically enough, whatever I try to save the person I am is just exactly against your selfish will.
Inspired by this rock song:
"Numb"
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
